Full Moon Adventures

Death is not the biggest fear we have; our biggest fear is taking the risk to be alive — the risk to be alive and express what we really are.

~ Don Miguel Ruiz

This last full moon was indeed magical. It was one of those cycles where the silvery light of the moon illuminated the shadows of the soul. We all have things we need to face before we can move into a new cycle of our life. This last moon forced me to look at the dark corners and admit feelings that I did not want to face. We all have events in our life that occur and leave us feeling helpless. I suck at feeling helpless.

Isaura helped give me perspective on the difference between letting go and giving up. Somehow, in my mind, they became one in the same. I can let go of a situation when it is time to; whether or not easily is dependent on the circumstances, however giving up is something that I have never been good at. I am very persistent and good at finding options or alternatives. Feeling helpless sets in when I cannot find those options or alternatives.

In the midst of dealing with these emotions, I experienced some amazing acts of love. First, my family’s love and support is always amazing to me. They continue to inspire me to be a better person. Secondly, a friend helped me along the path of achieving a life long dream (details to follow). Finally, another friend took the initiative to bridge our physical gap of almost three years.

All in all it was an amazing weekend. A reminder of all the love that I have in my life. I am so very grateful to the influence of the moon in my life.

Love & Gratitude,
Irisa

Gratitude is the memory of the heart. ~Jean Baptiste Massieu, translated from French

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Autumn Love & I am a leaf on the wind …

Autumn has long been my favorite time of year.   Slowing down from the busy year as camping and festival season draws to a close … things I did not get to do enough of this year!  Currently, the days are filled with vibrant colors, warm sun and cool nights.  The sun’s warmth on your body tempered by a cool breeze across the skin, wildflowers, my favorite boots, and so much more. This is the time of year that I long to be outdoors.

It has always been easier to slow down and take time for myself in Autumn.  I am not sure why, but it is.  Joy is easier to find, as is peace and serenity.  I was able to connect to some of that this morning as Princess Superhero and I cut wildflowers to put on the altars and dining table.  The joy continues as she and bear cub play with daddy’s old hat while giggling madly, as I write with meditation music playing in the background.

This season has long been a time of transformation and reflection.  Simple moments have a way of leaving a mark on us … whether the moment is good, bad, or indifferent.  Occasionally, we know what moments will leave us changed and other times we do not.  For me, this time of year has long been a time of personal reflection and transformation of those moments.  Recently, I had such a moment and I knew that it would leave me changed.  Changed how is my choice, as the runes have made perfectly clear.

As I have done my devotions this last week, I have repeatedly drawn the rune hagalaz.  I understand the moment that caused this to be in my life at this time, I also choose to keep the details of this moment private (and yes, everyone in our family if fine).  Now, I strive for the wisdom to transform this moment into one of positive growth, peace, honor, and change.  How?  I have no idea.  Perhaps, it is as simple as acknowledging the moment was significant.  I was raised to not react to life events.  Instead, I was taught to simply push through them and pretend everything is normal.  While there is some merit to this approach, after all it does allow one to function on a day to day basis, however the emotional and spiritual response to any transforming moment was ignored.

In the midst of this personal transition, I am working on a balance between the day to dayness of life while honoring my life event by striving for the wisdom to understand what I need from this experience, and remain connected to peace of spirit, the Kindred (Gods, Nature Spirits, and Ancestors), and myself.  I am also making an effort to not hermit while I digest what is needed, as was once my nature.

As I reread and edit this writing, a favorite movie line has popped into my mind … “I am a leaf on the wind, watch how I soar.”  (character Hoban Washburne, the movie Serenity)  This reminds me to remain organic and fluid in my life, and to allow the winds of transformation to wash over me and uplift my spirit to new heights.  A moment of clarity that has brought me great peace and insight.

Peace be with you.  Love & Autumn Blessings,

Irisa

Autumn Goldenrod in Cauldron, offered to Frigga

Autumn Goldenrod in Cauldron, offered to Frigga

Gratitude Challenge

I was tagged on Facebook for the 3 day gratitude challenge.

My family. They are the most amazing people that I have ever met. I have heard of the term unconditional love my entire life. I am beyond fortunate to be surrounded by people who live that way. There is a true spirit of acceptance in this family. Each of us is very much live and let live. We do our best not to judge anyone, but rather to accept them as they are. Individuals are the way they are because of their unique stories and experiences.

Sister Earth and My Out of State family. You have been my rock. You held me both physically and emotionally from the time this transition began to the current moment. Completely honest with each other through every step of the journey but also completely loyal and supportive. More unconditional love and friendship that fills my soul.

My body. She has weathered so many storms. Yet, through all the pain she is there. Helping me move with my clumsy grace. Sharing passion and love in all that I do. Celebrating the Goddess, honoring love, playing with children, and so much more. My body allows me to live my life.

My ability to Grow. I am grateful that I can grow and change. I am a better person for being able to do so.

The Kindred … The Gods, Nature Spirits, and Ancestors. All my life, I have known that there is something greater than me. Even when I was alone as a child, I believed in this. It gave me solace in a world that was not what it should be. My dearest heart sister, my childhood companion, my dearest friend, gave me a book by Scott Cunningham called Earth Power. I was 12 at the time and she walked up to me, saying “This is you, read it.” I did, and finally knew I wasn’t alone nor crazy. Others heard and saw as I did.

I am grateful for the moments. They are all that we have. Moments are what truly make our life.

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